Iki


Friday, February 15, 2002
I started spiralling downward last night some time; I have been trying to tell myself that it's not because of stupid Valentine's Day. Seems so trivial an occasion to feel so hopeless. I sent out a Valentine of sorts - a link to a site called Loveblender that features quotes about love. True love, obsessive love, unrequited love, animal love - every kind of love you could imagine. I think that was the fatal slip that started the spiral - I was reading these quotes from people like Matt Groening and Dan Savage about how love isn't something that has to "work out". It can be ludicrous, poorly-timed, inappropriate, and in bad taste. Getting love "right" isn't necessarily about waiting for exactly the person to bring you eternally fulfilling happiness. It's about spontaneity, the moment, passion, choosing against your "better judgement"... at least all of this was true when I was 18. Now I'm only 27 and already I'm looking for that OTHER kind of love. The one that people tell you is healthy and lasting. The one where you CARE about each other after the romance and passion have subsided. What HAPPENED to me? When did I start prioritizing smart love before fun love? Why did I start blaming passion for failed relationships? And who first wrote those words, "and they lived happily ever after. The End." Did they realize how they would influence an entire civilization that if love doesn't live happily ever after then we all somehow feel we've failed at it? Have we?


Thursday, February 14, 2002
I am working with a friend to create business cards for a new photography business that he is trying to get off the ground. We are working on a logo and he told me he was looking for something abstract. I started thinking about ways to get him to think about himself in an abstract manner; I came up with this.

"In English lit there's a term used for a literary device. Check it out.

Main Entry: syn*ec*do*che
Pronunciation: s&-'nek-d&-(")kE
Function: noun
Etymology: Latin, from Greek synekdochE, from syn- + ekdochE sense,
interpretation, from ekdechesthai to receive, understand, from ex from +
dechesthai to receive; akin to Greek dokein to seem good -- more at EX-,
DECENT
Date: 15th century
: a figure of speech by which a part is put for the whole (as fifty sail
for fifty ships), the whole for a part (as society for high society), the
species for the genus (as cutthroat for assassin), the genus for the
species (as a creature for a man), or the name of the material for the
thing made (as boards for stage)

What part represents your whole?"

It made me stop and think about the same question for myself. What part represents my whole?